better day

A much better day today. Thinking we just need to be mindful of the potential for flare-ups, but the girl has really grown and learned how to handle things.

signs of the past

This morning brought back a bit of the dreaded morning anxiety that we have not seen so so long. Paige has been doing so amazing with her school and schedule and everything else in her life, it's easy to forget where we were, and how far she's come.

Her day had to be deviated a little this morning so she could do an assessment for her french class. Just this little thing was enough to set some of the old habits in motion. The positive side to all of this, is that she didn't have a melt down, she got it together and made it to school without issue. The scary part was, there were signs of how it used to be, Crystal and I would be the only ones who could have picked up on them, but they were there, just under the surface.

The bottom line is that the anxiety is still there, and we can't forget that. I am proud of her for getting it together, but I can't assume that it is always going to be easy.

monday

Back again after a long but wonderful weekend. When Crystal and I were in New York we saw the Broadway show Wicked. We decided the girls would have loved it, so when we found out it was coming to Denver, we made sure we grabbed some tickets. Saturday was our day to see it. The girls were beside themselves with excitement. Our seats were amazing, but I think I spent most of the show staring at their faces. That was truly the show. The best part about the day had to be the fact that Paige really controlled her anxiety. If we had tried this a year ago, it would have been traumatic and one of us would have stayed with her in the lobby. She has come so far.

Sunday we spent the day outside of a King Soopers working for the Got Dreams foundation. Got Dreams was started by a man who, years ago, donated one box of food to a family for Thanksgiving. Every year he doubles his commitment. This year he is up to six hundred Colorado families. The girls really enjoyed the day, tallying the food we had been given. It amazes me how generous people can be.

Now it is on to a busy week for ideaFarm which is a great thing. There is potential for some exciting opportunities on the horizon. More on that later.

a nervous day

This afternoon is the appointment for Penny at Children's Hospital, and I am writing this with a great sense of anxiety. I hope we find some answers, but at the same time, I am nervous of what we might find out. Paige has had an utter breakdown this morning with her grandmother heading home. I can't say that I am surprised, but I had hoped she would have pulled it together.

Not the case.

So, I write this irritated as well as worried. In the end everything will work out, I know, but right now, the unknown is sitting heavily.